A Common Difficulty!!! - Resisting to Hope, Difficulty in Trusting for the Best

I have asked so many, to feel at ease through their difficult times, though i know that it is a common human difficulty to stay with hope, trust God and believe with the positive side of life, when inability pushes us down.

But however good you are,in Hoping for the best, certain situations, difficulties, uneasiness pushes you down, that you will seek God, as if it is the first time, you are seeking Him, asking a favor, even after receiving so many blessings and miracles from Him.

Here is one from me, a page in my diary written on 12/1/2011

I like to post this, as this will remain as a proof,to realize God's blessings which will definitely prove that, i am a fool, and due to uneasiness i resisted to Hope for the best.

God,

I am getting larger and feeling dis comfortable to do the daily chores.
Lord, I am kind of scared, let me be brave enough; above all let me trust You with all my heart and soul.

I am 31 weeks now, and my tummy looks bigger than ever, looking as if it cannot expand anymore. But I had to agree that there is nothing which is not possible for You.

Due to human inability, though my soul keep on instructing me to stay cool (as nothing bad will happen), I am disturbed.

God give me faith, You Promised to give me two kids, You gave and I am carrying. As said in Isaiah 66; You will take care of me; why should i disturb my Husband and parents by letting them know the way i feel. God, give me Courage, give me Physical and Mental Strength.

God, whenever i have opened my desires to you, before letting anybody else know what it is, I know, You being my Father, have satisfied my Desire. Now i desire, that my kids should never be kept in NICU even for a day.

I have read in the scripture, " If a son asks for bread, will the father give him a snake? If a human father is so much concerned about his son; How concerned will the Heavenly Father be?"

I believe in You, Lord. I will have no Fear, if i am guided by You all Day and Night. Now that, i am tired and feeling dis comfortable, I need your extra Care and Comfort. Don't leave me and get busy with other responsibilities, Lord. Be with me, Because i cannot afford to scare anybody Human here.

If You are with me, i can Easily Manage all my difficulties.You were with me in all my past difficulties and pains.

Otherwise, how could a person like me??? remain so quiet and relaxed; when things were what it is now and before?

Thank You Lord, for all your blessings. Give me a heart to remember and Count all Your Blessings and Promises' You made for me and that I have realized, tasted and received from You.

Help me to remain Simple and Humble, so that i can seek and find You. And You are available.

Love,

Ur Daughter