On my trip to Chennai

I need to say i am a kind of an apathetic living being; returned from UAE. I had tried so much to add up weight, when i was at school and college, and now i am trying to become slim again!!!There were so much to think, when you add weight,about climbing steps, using an indian toilet,running after kids,quick moves. I am really sad, that i added weight. Chennai was so familiar to me, i had been to many places all alone, studied, worked, learnt so much, became a mother here. So much associated with the city, i had seen my pains here, my pleasures here. 13 months away from it, now it looks newer again. Bitter part is, my parents had shifted to Tambaram, a very new place to me. Hanging out is the best thing, i love in chennai, i need no one here to hang out with. All alone, i love going to places, churches, malls. No one bothers the other and nothing bothers even. Now i had to depend on my dad, brother just to get into the city, for essential needs. Lucky me, even now, my dad never stops me from going anywhere. Thanks to Metro Trains, without it, my life would have been more bitter @ chennai. i can relax in train, provided i get in at non office hours. 40 mins, i get into the city, have so much time to rest. One fine morning at office hours, i ran to get into the train, it was crowded.the ladies compartment was full, except one seat next to small girl of age 5 - 6. she was wearing a mask, and was without hair. no idea, what prevented other women to sit next to her. i thought, it as a good chance to relax by sitting there. when i sat, the girl smiled, and i smiled too, her mother was sitting in the opposite chair. i generally wont speak during journeys, but i asked her mom, why was she wearing a mask? was it a cold? she said, the little is after a surgery and so... After a little while, the girl smiled at me again. she was cute even though she was without hair. i continued to speak to her mom, "what surgery?" she replied it was a Liver transplantation.It shocked me! I asked her if she was born premature? she said she was a term baby at birth and still she had problems in her liver right from it. thinking some other little one would have transplanted the girl a liver, i asked her again, about the Donor. She said it was her, the mother, who cut her liver into two and had transplanted it to her daughter. I was Numb for a minute and tears flowed from my eyes. i was a bit emotional, but then i just managed to make it up. I then asked where were they going to. She smiled and said T.nager for shopping. I said great, go ahead, have fun. The little one was full of energy to go out. Then i thought to myself, if they had to cry, they should be crying on the past, present and future challenges. Yet they wish to be happy. How much thankful and happy should we be, for we are blessed so much. All i can do for them is to remember them in my daily prayers. God bless them and keep them under his care.

Parenting twins

Sometimes, I don't get time for anything. Friends, relations, colleagues - looks like I am too selfish, I think a lot about them, but communication will be missed. It's hard to explain, and very hard to understand. Looking at the fun aspects of parenting twins, life is too cool, chill with them. It's funny, if I say parenting them is easy. Still, I just have to make it easy, coz I love them so much. 10 reasons why parenting twins is easy------- 10. I get much more exercise than I used to get - lol - I get hungry than usual too 9. I get to everything twice - double checking as a routine 8. I get to shop often - :) just emptying my husbands pursue 7. Best deals- diapers, formula, wipes 6. Feeling like superstar everywhere I go 5. Getting intimate with other twin moms 4. People don't ask me when I m having the next child 3. My twins play with each other 2. I get to read a. Lot, I like it or not, I just have to... Everything new with them 1. Double of everything - love, kisses, hugs, irritations, anger and restlessness.

My balance sheet as on date...

We all measure our happiness in life. I am no excuse. Comparing with my past, I have grown in many ways,in qualities but not in monetary terms. In the career front, I have placed it to the second position. But I have had always regretted for it, still regretting in a way and will regret too. Looking at my girl friends I sometimes envy them, for having a dual life. I also see their extreme pressures and deadlines, yet they have never scared me, since I always love working and earning money. It often comes to me, trouble me and then I always balance my regrets with my kids and tally them. my career was everything to me, my kids were really a miracle. God somehow have looked at me with favour, though I am a bad sinner, He gave me two little, beautiful, boy and girl twins. Now I am their caretaker full time, mom, maid, nurse, teacher, their everything! I have seen people wearing a garland, on their wedding, retirement day. But I am always wearing two beautiful garlands all the time, in my neck, shoulders and hips, sometime one at a time,and sometimes two even. Priceless garlands, God's Grace and His promised love. They drive me crazy, irritated, untidy and so much. Little by little my anger and bps raise and wonders I see, they just vanish by a mere kiss from them. My dreams to work runs all the time, and I am waiting for the day for my kids to be ready. With them I will also grow.