Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Does anyone know, the toughest work a woman has?


After graduation, i tried finding a job, it was tough yet manageable.
While working, it had to show performance, fine, it is not a big problem

After wedding, to take up responsibilities, was a challenge too
To work and to be a wife was challenging as well
Pregnancy was very challenging
Delivery to the Number 1

But to feed the kids from milk to semi solids, my God... Unexplainable...

A page from my recent Past


Helping my friend with my small twins,is difficult. Still, i have made my mind to help her, in ways i could.

The day started with my back Pain at 3.30 am, in the morning, with my disturbed sleep. My Bro tried to wake me at 4.00 for the daily morning walk. I could not make it up, though the pain was troubling me, i was only half awake.

Mind was asking the body to wake up, for the walk; while the body was hesitating to get up. with struggles i started for the walk at 5.00, my son cried and i fed him till 5.30 and stepped out.

with just 12 rounds, in the mehta nager ground, i decided to quit walking in the ground and walked towards the church. The clock turned 6.10, and the morning prayers were on, yet the mass is at 6.30. Went to the Communion room, since i felt i need a private place for a conversation with the creator. Tired after the walk, the air conditioned room gave me real good feeling that unknowingly i spent 20 minutes there.

Reached home at 6.30, saw my kids playing in the bed. washed hands, and went to play with them for a while. The Aunty, who takes care of my kids had filed the buckets with metro water. Though i was happy,i pitied her that she has lifted it from to the ground floor to the second.

Since we had bitter experiences, walking in the companies, we decided to rest for few days and start the search after some days. While, My Bro came up with advertisements in newspapers.

This time, I hesitated to accompany her, still she is very new to chennai, I started with her. The interview was with New India - Impulse, 25, Tulak Office Road, Saidapet. When we decided to appear for it, it was 12.30 in the afternoon, the Sun is all set to show its greatest glory.

We en quired lot of idiots, but no one know where the Tualk office Road was. Travel in bus, reminded me my early life. we got down in the old Bus stand and asked a quite a few people and no one knows where it was. Finally decided to walk straight through the bridge. An auto Driver came that way, asked where, we need to go.

We said, we dont need a drop, since, we dont know where the place was. He asked us to get in, and in return to give him a change of Rs.20. Looking at the eating sun, we started in the auto. Just after the bridge, he stopped to ask where the place was. My friend was trying to get my attention, to tell me that we were standing in front of the New India Office, while i was busy asking the route.

Slowly the auto driver told me, it looks little far, and he needs 50 Rupees. At the Dawn of our arguments, My friend, shouted, we are standing right in front. I gave him 50 and asked him to give 30 back, while he gave just 20. The arguments went to some level, i felt, it is not worth to speak more, since we had to go back home, my kids are waiting for me.

The Interview took only 10 minutes, i was happy inside, thinking i can take my friend back home. Came out and realized, we are very near to the chenna malai church.

Prayed, had some water and we dont know, which way to go. Some person who looked similar to a watch man came to our sight, we went to ask the way.

He started in English. He was so fluent, as if he was a CEO of some Company. The conversation went along with some pieces of advice to us. He, being so simple, wearing worn out clothes, i asked him, if he were a priest. He said, he is waiting for a call from Jesus Christ. He added, he was working with 25 companies, settled all his three children, having a kid each. I asked where he wife was, He replied, she agreed to go with Jesus 30 years ago and now buried in the Cemetery of the same church.

With Thanks, when we were about to leave, He asked me a favor, to give him Rs.10.

With so many questions,in mind, we both walked away.

Does a wife mean so much to a man, of Old age?

Also, whoever you are, Money places vital role in every one's life, be it an auto driver, my friend, who is in the job hunt process and the so called "Selfless old person"

Life is Great, Each day is a Learning!!!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Written on some date in 2008, though outdated, looks appropriate even today!!!


10 pieces of Advice, which i gave myself - when i first decided to get married. Found interesting even now.

I’m not somebody who is just dropped from heaven. I have been here for 24 years in this world.

You are person who is about to enter my life, so I may not be so causal and free with you in the beginning. It might take some time.

Be as you are, and let me be like me as I’m. Let’s try accepting us as we are… don’t worry we would change as time passes on.

It is not ¾ of happiness and ¼ of bitterness; it will be ¾ of difficulties and ¼ of special attention towards each other. It is we who should take things positively and find solutions.

There should never be an “I” but every time, it should be “we”…. We should practice this and make it possible.

Understand we are humans and we do mistakes. It is always the same even if it is done by you or me… doesn’t make much of difference.

Think a 1000 times before choosing me…. Never think once that you made a mistake, and why did I not choose a better person? Remember even it is someone else; the person will again be a human

Nothing is going to stay, except for the sweet memories. I would try best to become your memories and you be mine.

Let it be good or worse, let it be success, difficulty, pain, responsibility or forgiveness ….. You are my first person and I’ll be yours.

Together we would say the world, living together is neither impossible nor a difficulty if use LOVE as salt and pepper here and there as we go along.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Brave Heart


It is unfair on my part to speak about a Brave heart. Yet, i do, since our lives would be much better, if i had one.

Everybody are emotional idiots. I should call myself as a "Better idiot".On my part, i would love to stay in idiocy, as i love being emotional.

Crying over small problems, i had spent lot of my energy, while i failed to foresee the future. If i had, by now, i would have had a better life for my Husband and Children.

Living every minute is essential, besides life really doesn't stops at the minute. It extends with hours, day, week and Years....!!!

Fine, nothing has really spoiled,still lot more time is available.

I hate to take decisions myself, though i do and i have done as a back- end process. May be now its time for me to stay brave, stand firm, till the time, the future is assured.

Well, again, i love being an idiot, an emotional idiot...

But, i have realized, i would be at fault, if i continue to be an idiot,while i should be brave and assure a happy future.

Hope The Creator, would be with us, in tough times. Nothing to worry much,while its time to Rejoice, looking at the happy future.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Does hurts heal?


Unusual situations would make people, to react. Staying calm over the tide is extremely difficult. Still no one could stay clam for a long period without reacting.

The more you bear, the more it bursts. So it is not only important staying calm, but to stay calm until the problem solves is the task. When it burst things would conclude to the worst.

All physical hurts will get healed sooner than the hurt, the words make. No medicine is there to heal wounded hearts. Time is the only doctor, who could heal the wounded heart.

So lets be careful in the choice of words, that once it is uttered we cannot take it back.